"Party in the Hollywood Hills"

 PARTY IN THE HOLLYWOOD HILLS

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Eu não sei como ele se parece na verdade. Com os outros eu os imaginava como príncipes ou algo assim, mas agora que paro pra pensar, o fato de que tinham outros me diz that I brought this upon myself.

Ele é só um ESTP genérico. Eu quero dizer isso pra ele pra ver se consigo tirar uma reação. Se não estivéssemos presos aqui, com certeza ele me levaria pras colinas de Hollywood me mostrar uma festa de verdade.

Na verdade I’m more drawn to him for the fact that he doesn’t feel anything at all. I know I feel unholy. I know I do…

Left wondering what would it be like to be his first love. I would regret that. I’m not gonna be the one to teach him holiness AND I SWEAR TO GOD THAT IF IT WAS JENNIF… no. I’m fine, sorry.

I wanna be IT, you know. I hate when someone takes my name, or looks like me, or acts like me, or gets my things. They’re the only two I would let get my name. That’s why we’re trapped anyways.

BUUUUUUUT, he’s cute though. Like really cute. And he pretends he likes books and nerdy stuff just like how I pretend I like to dance all night and collapse to the ground. Like we don’t make any sense at all. Like living each others lives and skin. His skin must feel unholy too.

Actually it feels better because it feels bad. Do I… feel… different? To you? I hope he doesn’t see me as just some thing. I see people that way sometimes but I love my things. I don’t wanna be broken like the broken things I find around, because they always become my toys. Nah, that’s too far.

Could I become something else? Like something that could get a boy like him? Not love me or anything just… take me to a world that burns bright and moves so fast it feels like slow motion.

No, I don’t feel like that. I’m just wondering what is like.

Is that lust? I did stuff I didn't want to do, yet I wanted to. I think. It just felt good. Maybe I am her...

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